Healing Circle of Sisters
I went out with Storm and Cristina on a Friday night and it was the best night out I have ever had. I told them all my deep dark secrets and they told me theirs. Storm bought us all these bracelets, including herself…friendship bracelets. She also gave me a card that was so beautiful and it told me I was beautiful. No one has ever told me I was beautiful before…not even Moor. We had such a wonderful night and I know now that I am not alone in this journey and that I will never attempt to take my life again…it would be absurd to me now. I love those chicks…and 8/4/06 will remain my death and real birthday
List 3 neuro-associative conditions I have made in the past that shape my life for positive and 3 that shaped my life for the negative.
1. Drinking beer: my cousin Earnest had me drink his and it was nasty…I thought it was OJ…never wanted it again
2. Smoking: my mom smoked and I hated it…never smoked
3. Don’t depend on anyone for anything: taught me to be independent
1. Hearing Monica’s “Kicking It with You” reminds me of that night.
2. Don’t depend on anyone: doesn’t allow people to receive joy of helping me.
3. Speaking to elders sometimes cause me to stutter because when I was younger I couldn’t speak freely and I was a recluse
Using the 4 things I want to change in my life, for each, list 10 reasons why I need to change and the cost if I don’t and the great things that will happen if I do. Also list why I know I can change.
A. Losing weight
6. cute clothes
7. my neck back
8. beautiful skin
9. no more back pain
Cost: I will never know these things and I will regret it all my life.
Great things: Being just me and being happy, more confident and ambitious
I know I can change because its actually quite easy all I have to do is make the first step.
B. Starting my business
3. helping family
4. education for nephew
8. no more 9-5
9. passing on wealth
Cost: A job, being poor, not being able to afford kids, mediocre life, not helping Jay. Mental hell
Great things: Well have a new life and experiences…not have a want for anything.
I know I can do this because I have all the tools I need. I just have to release the fear.
C. Standing up for myself
1. tools for business
3. no regrets
4. end of cycle
5. teaching kids
7. sending a message
8. blood pressure decrease
9. no anxiety
Cost: continue being a doormat
Great things: respect
I know that I can do this because I am strong than I think
D. Letting my pass go
1. no fear
2. no pain
3. a new life
4. no food for comfort
5. learning the lessons
6. losing weight
7. starting business
8. standing up for myself
9. self love
10. moving on
Cost: Letting my past eat me alive and stifle my growth.
Great things: Putting my sword and shield down to study war no more.
I know I can do this because I have to. If I don’t I die and all that will be will die.
Write down 4 or 5 ways I can interrupt my patterns
A. Losing Weight -> instead go for a walk, draw, leave house, work on business, call a friend
B. Starting Business -> instead look at Oprah, read success stories, calculate my debt, think about receiving a 15yr pin
C. Standing up for self -> Know that I have to let it go…simple as that
D. Letting the past go -> Say “let it go”, look in the mirror to see what it created, go walking, draw
Create a new association to the 4 actions I want
A. Losing Weight -> associate being fat to not letting my past go and allowing it to rule
B. Starting Business -> associate feeling of success and beating my past
C. Standing up for self -> Associate it to letting people know who I am
D. Letting the past go -> Associate it with being reborn
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