For as long as I can remember, I have always prided myself in knowing that I didn’t let this world turn me into a bitch. But is that really true?No, I am carrying that bitch around with me every single day and I may not let the world battle with her but “I” am battling with her mostly via my food addictions. I realize right now that there is NOT a day that “she” has not been around to step in if I “messed up” and I realize now the only way to defeat “her” is to be one with her.

And no Im not talking about giving up, but to stop trying to avoid that side of myself that wants to be out and about. So my biggest place where she manifests herself is through my addictions and food is the primary vice, so I have to find a way to accept that this “dark” side of myself isn’t going anywhere and make life adjustments to live this life with her as well.

What I have said is so deep, I dont even know where to start…to be continued…