Well this is Day #29 of the journal entries and unbeknownst to me, Ay decided to call it quits.

I am so very proud of myself because I did not think I was able to allow someone into my heart again after Ra so this is just a testament to my resilience. I was giving, loving, responsible and honest about my feelings and I really feel I did a great job being Ay’s lover, Im sure he would disagree but I know I did my best. I was not afraid to face myself and to grow. So what do I want to do with my life? Travel, I want to travel the world and enjoy every moment. Im no longer focused on relationships anymore.

Oh why did he call it quits? He said we were having break downs in communication and instead of working on resolving those break downs, he simply opted to call it quits and work on it as friends. I think he’d agree it wasn’t anything major, just growing pains, but it was something he didn’t want to explore. Its so funny, that when we had our “Master Gibson” debate a major growth opportunity for him was revealed to us both and I stayed. And I told him because I didn’t want to lose him I would do the work to make sure I supported him in his growth. However, when mines came to the surface, it was too much to handle. I just realized that, but in any case, everything happens for a reason and the only thing I can do is walk in Love…I have no time to cower in fear.

Ay? I wish you the best and much success, thank you for showing me I can Love again…Love you eternal <3.